i'm losing it;

Sometimes its really hard. It's hard to manage my emotions. It's hard to be the emotional brick wall that everyone is expected to be nowadays. It's hard to deal with things on my own. It's hard to pretend I don't care. It's just hard.

I never realized how much I love Brianna. I loved feeding her for the first time tonight. She's so beautiful.

I'm scared. I don't know why.

Confession: I'm really looking forward to my twisted frosty from Wendy's.