FRUSTRATED. I wanted to put this in my written diary but I don't even have the energy to write. I'm trying so hard to go back to normal and it's so hard and unfair. Making it through the schoolday is hard. Focusing is nearly impossible. I can't keep my grades nearly as high as last quarter I'll be lucky if I crack 90 with my lack of ability to focus due to discomfort. I'm just so frustrated because I want to just go back to normal. I don't want to be tired all the time. I don't want to have to sit down sometimes. I don't want to be unable to focus in school. It isn't fair. I want my life back.

did you ever think that maybe i need this? i need to get the hell out of here im practically stuck in the house for god knows how long and the one opportunity ive been looking forward to is still there for me of course im gonna take it. you act like youve never been selfish before i can name plenty of times you have im sure.

Life As We Knew It

SOSOSO disappointing. I was into it for the whole book, and the ending just made me mad. It was nothing. Bleh.
5 down, 45 to go.

and everything will be alright

Though it's cold outside, the sun beaming through my window still at 4:39 is giving me the feeling of spring time. For some reason I'm being reminded of the few weeks in eighth grade where I played softball. The same sun shined down just like this, sending the same feeling throughout my body.

I feel like in the end, everything will be okay.

I feel like my life is pretty in order today. I'm feeling this day a lot. I hope I'm not sick and that my body is just being weird right now.

I'm usually incredibly uncomfortable anywhere I go for an extended period of time, but for once it's like the opposite effect. I actually feel uncomfortable here, I don't feel home. I want to go back. She wants me to come back for some of February break but that's going to cause conflict especially if I don't get my phone by then. Meh :|

I hate the way coming home from some place nice feels. It really puts a damper on my mood and makes me realize just how much I hate it here.

I wish I could even explain to you how amazing this weekend was. If it wasn't for him I'd probably never come home.

so close no matter how far,

I've felt really in love lately. I can't even explain at it all. Times like these I wish we were eighteen with our own places so we could just cuddle up in bed together.

we all live in a yellow submarine.

I'm stoked for tomorrow. :D
I'm feeling pretty content right now.
Blogger's been boring me lately. :| Mostly because I feel like it's a waste to make quick little posts, and sometimes it's hard to have full, flowy thoughts. Meh.