sell your soul

A huge blur is what my past has seemed like lately. I couldn't understand why. While the past is the past, I kind of wanted to truly remember it and not be so numb to it. I truly realize that everything happens for a reason, cause right now I have this uncomfortable pain in my chest as this blur cleared up for the evening. I feel it so much. I feel many of the wounds that were left unhealed, and many of the tensions from situations that were never fully addressed. It hurts. I understand why it's generally blurry. I'm glad I don't have to feel this everyday.

My thought process frustrates me. I had so many good thoughts before, but now they're gone. I'm going to do some laundry tomorrow.